输了

我真的付出。。。
付出我的真心。。
付出我的关心。。。
付出我的。。。。
可是， 现在的我明白了付出并不代表你的到一样的真心。。。
为何， 每一次你都能把我的付出， 我的真心。。 当作视而不见。。。
我真的那么的讨你厌吗？
我真的那么不重要吗？
还是我更本对你来说只不过是你的一场游戏。。。
那我真的输了， 真的输了，，
输了我的泪。。
输了我的痛。。。
输了我的心。。
你赢了你赢走了一切。。。
赢走了我的笑。。。
赢走了我的世界。。
赢走了我的天空。。。
你骄傲的走出这场游戏。。。
只留下一无所有的我。。。

非常的明白， 也知道，无论有多么的喜欢你。

也不能在你身上得到任何的回应。。

为自己感到可悲， 我踏出的每一步， 却发现你在退步。。。

只有自己一厢情愿的以为如果我能再多付出一点点，

可能你会看到我 。。。

可是有些东西是永远都是一样。。

无论多努力。。。 无论多好。。

结果还是一样。。

为了你，我把自己变得没有了尊严。。

为了你，我把自己变得更渺小。。。

为了你， 我把自己的世界都变了。。。

现在的我更爱哭了。。

现在的我更害怕了。。

害怕想起你。。

害怕再见到你。。

害怕听到你的消息。。

害怕想起你的哪些。。。

有些东西我应该一早就明白。。。

有些事情我应该去接受。。。

有些人我根本不应该去期待。。。

明白我根本不曾在你心中。。。

和你的一切对你来说只是代替品。。

代替那个不爱你的人。。

代替你的不安。。。

可是又有谁代替你呢？

又有谁代替你去爱我呢？

多恨你等于多爱你。。

多爱你等于多想你。。。

多想你。。。

眼泪总是不停的流。。。

心痛得快不能呼吸....

你永远都不会明白我的痛...

你永远都不会知道我有多想你..

你的沉默是我的痛..

你的狠心是我的痛...

你的一切是我最美丽最残忍的回忆...

还是不懂。。。

已经忘记了第几次因为想你而哭。。
很傻吧！明明已经知道你不会在为我的眼泪而紧张了。
我真的真的不懂，你怎么了，你的改变让我变的灰灰了 。
如果你从来不曾出现， 我的世界可能不会那么的辛苦。
你的笑脸依然在我的眼前。为什么回忆会变得那么的痛苦。
我想不懂， 我们到底怎么了？
多想问你， 为什么突然的你那么的残忍。
我的心已经快不再属于我了。
每一次想你，
每一次的流泪。
都告诉自己会是最后一次。
到底还能撑多久了?
累了真的累了.
为什么还是爱你?

i was thinking wat r u doing there?

harry potter is on show nw..
i was thinking do u still remember that u promise me we weill go to watch together?
or u never think about it...
i was thinking ... we so long didnt contact each others .
and wat u r doing there?
hw many time the phone on my hand i wisj my finger can press dial and call u ...
but m mind telling me that .. stop doing this silly thing
cuz i knoe u never wan me to call u ...
dont u know hw much i miss u ..
i was thinking ... hv u never try or think about it to text or call me ..
i was thinking ... why we just like a stranger..
u saw me rite... but y wan to pretend u don know me..
do u know hw i feel at that moment..
do u know hw i pain i am ...
do u know hw i hurt i am...
why u so cruel to me...
i was think... anything wrong?
am i doing something wrong?
am i hurt u ?
am i ...
too many question in my mind .. is just no answer...
i need to pretend i don care..
i need to pretend i don mind..
i need to pretend i don miss u anymore..
i need to pretend i don love u..
why i need to pretend..
u never know ...
just like i never know wat u thinking...
the thing only i know is ...
i missing u ....

u again ...

again is u again ....
why everytime when i tot is the time i can over u ..
u show in front of me again...
do u know hw hard i try to forget u ...
to forget ur face...
to forget ur smile.. to forget ur...
u not even look at me...
u not even text me..
u not even call me...
me and u is just like a stranger ...
its just like we never know each others bfore...
Why u act it this way...
u really don feel anything ..between u and me...
no matter hw hard i try to forget u ..
u seem like a shadow all around me ..
but i knoe u and me bcome a stranger ....
bye dear ..

Best Friend?

There is at one time and another, i tot u will be my best friend forever and ever...

but slowly i found that actually i don hv any best friend....

im not deserve any best friend beside me ...

the way i concern my friend maybe is wrong way ..

its might make you all feel uncomfortable or im a busy body ...

i love u all , i wish u all can share everything.. happiness, sadness,laughing , tears...

but i found that ppl don...

when the concern bcome a nothing...

the friendship between us nothing to connected...

the word best friend seem like doesnt belong to me....

no matter hw hard i try to carry through the friendship between us ..

but thing still lose out...

MY DEAR BEST FRIEND

Time without u....

i already cant remember hw many time i missing u again ...
your face..
your tender..
your smile...
your hand ...
eveything about you its just like yesterday ...
i cant see others..
ur face ur shadow is kust all around the city ...
hw many time i press the buttom wan to call out..
and ask do u love me?
Nw.. i know u dont ...
u even dont pick up my call..
i m just a passenger or maybe just a toys in ur life...
maybe u just feel bored and try to make joke on me...
is just i dont understand the rules....
tot that will be real...
tot u really care about me..
tot u really like me...
tot u really love me...
tot ur kiss is real ....
tot u will be the one to hold my hand....
i try so hard to forget u...
i try so hard to stop missing you...
but i think i not strong enough....
my tears be the evidence that i still love you ....

my....

hw many time i wish i can meet u ...
hw many thing i wish i can hear u ..
hw many time i wish i can touch u ...
hw many time i wish i can hold u ...
hw many time i wish i can tell u then "i like you"..
BUT no matter hw i wish...things still same..
u still don know i like u .
u still don know hw much i miss you...
u still don know hw sad i am ....
everytime i cry.. my tears telling me u r not the one
my tears tell me he never know...
you never knoe hw pain i am ....
hv u miss me 1 second?
hv u think about me ?

恨自己

以为已经把你忘记了。

以为不再会为你心痛。

以为不再会想起你，

以为不再为你流眼泪了，

但你的出现在提醒我有多想你，

多想再见到你。

眼泪在那一刹哪的流下，

的告诉我其实多麽的想你。

总是在别人的身上看见你的一切。

你的出现让我又多恨我自己

恨自己的软弱，

恨自己为什么还在想你，

恨自己为什么还在爱你。

你让我变成一个笨蛋。

傻傻的爱你，

傻傻的相信总有一天你会转头看见我在等你。

傻傻的相信总有一天你会拉着我的手。

傻傻的相信总有一天你会。。。。。

这一天是几时？

你会想起我吗？

Why still cant over you

i though i already over u but when the moment i saw ur face..
i realize that u never left me its just i don dare to think about it..
i hate myself why till nw still missing u ..
why why wan me to see u again ...
and pretend i feel nothing..
do u knoe hw pain i am .. when i tot i cant just over u ..
and start v my new life..
but u just like the air ..
everything i saw i feel all its just about u ..
the eyes follow u ..
my heart doesnt belong to me...
u control all the thing ..
my happiness, my sadness...
my tears bcause of you..
every drop off i wish is the last..
i just don know why there r always happen again...

还是会想你

原来只要一首非常简单的歌，

你的一切一切就能电影一样的浮现全部的画面

原来我最怕最怕的就是想起你。

一自以来我以为已经把你给忘记，

最后发现我根本就是一个驼鸟，

看不见就当作不曾发生。

眼泪也会不小心的流，

讨厌这样的我，

每一次的想念都告诉我没资格。

有多想你就会有多痛,



告诉我这假的一切都是假的。

Said It

I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long

That's why you go away
I knowYou were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me


Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

day by day .....

day by day...
time pass time...
i still waiting...
waiting the story with no ending...
waiting everything will do...
waiting ur call..
waiting ur sms...
waiting u stand in front me..
waiting u to care me...
waiting u to love me...
waiting...
i know deep in my heart every waiting is just cant be..
u wont call me...
u wont care about me..
and u wont love me...
maybe a kiss meant nothing to u ...
but not for me ..
miracle is tat really happen ..
its might happen but not on me ..

U still don know my pain

ppl will think that i make a good decision to let u go...
but they just don know hw pain i am..
even u also don know hw pain i am...
i really know is time to let u go.. but another me tell me don give up easily..
should i insist all this....
its make me become schizophrenia...
i know ppl mock at my timidity...
why not just ask you and get the answer...
what i going to do when i found out the answer is not i want?
every phone ring i always wish is you..
every sms i always wish is u ..
but everytime is just another pain in my heart
i just wondering what u feel ..
do u feel my pain..
do u feel my desparate..
do u love me a second...1 second ...

突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过
自己突然好想你
你会在哪里过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品我们那麽甜
那麽美那麽相信那麽疯
那麽热烈的曾经为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去
突然好想你
你会在哪里过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆突然模糊的眼睛
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过没有你却又突然听到你的消息...
That what i feel nw.. tears seems like cant stop drop off
when i hear this song...
i still can feel the pain..
the pain i cant breath...
ur voice..ur face.. ur tender.. ur..
all around deep in my heart...
missing u so sudden

原来。。。。。

已经决定把你的电话从我的手机里删除。。。
你永远都不会明白那时候的我有多痛有多想哭。。
想忘记你。。。总是想起你。。。
不明白为何你要这样对我。。
一开始你就不应该闯进我的世界。。。
现在你又一声不响的离开。。。
曾经对我的好都是为什么？
只是一时的冲动吗？
我是真的真的以为你是真心对我。。。
原来只有我傻傻的相信你是真对我。。。
不小心的喜欢了你。。。
不小心的受伤了。。。
每一次的流泪都是一次的心痛。。。
每一次的心痛都是一次的想你。。。
眼泪不明白为何总是不停的流， 我已经快受不了。。。
原来到头来只是我一个人不明白这个游戏我根本玩不起。。。

finally....

finally i know the answer...
finally i just let u go...
its really annoy me ...
its really pain..
i just cant get through it nw..
give me some time to recover it..
i try to forget u .. but it seem ur face..ur voise..ur shadow all around the city..
hw stupid me ..
i try to control my tears but don know why it till weep away..
the second i deleted ur num from my phonebook ..
i know that the end ..
no more turn..
u never knoe hw pain i am when i found that i am nobody for u...
pls pls pls don call.. don sms.. really mean it....

finally....

Warehouse Sales Season

30 April .. Nike Warehouse sales
30 April - 3 May Zara Warehouse sales
May - Bobbi Brown warehouse sales
May - Estee Lauder warehouse sales
.... For the date i will update once i confirm lo
so be patient....
hahha.. warehouse sales whos make me bankrup lo.. died lo
whole month seem like spend all the money on the warehouse sales
hwhwhwhhwh..
no money hw to survive ...

you???

everything between u and me is just like a dream..
everything seem like not real...
sometime u just too tender...but
sometime u just too cold...
all i wan is just a answer...
a answer that u and me..
why i keep waiting?
it really excruciate ...
what i going to do if the answer is not what i expect?
sometime feel that i just want to find out what r u thinking?
it is same like me ?
or u never think about me ?
do u miss me in the still if night ?

i miss you...

what are you doing ...

what are you doing when i missing you...
what are you doing when i thinking of you...
what are you doing ... thats the question i always ask for it ...
many question question ... is just all about you...
the air is frozen...
the sky is grey...
the start is hiding...
loving you is just more than that....
more than a sky ...
more than me..
more than you...
hate for waiting...
hate that i miss you ..
hate that i like you..
hate ...
just wan to over you..
just wan back my life before..
just wan to stop everything...
just wan...
hating you? loving you?

Good Night Benjamin

Title : The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Artist : Brad Pitt, Cate Balnchett

Hours : 3 hours

Its really a great and touch story for year 2009 (Feb)

pretty creative storyline for screen..

a baby body and 80 years old body..BENJAMIN

the life of Benjamin.. his life is anti-closewisse

thing happen is turn it wrongly...

ppl getting old when the time pass us by..

for benjamin he getting younger and younger and turn it yo te baby again ...

so which 1 u prefer.. when the life start on 80 years old

or the life start on 0?

i was thinking this question as well?

which 1 is better? getting older? getting younger?

when the day of ur end of the life you r young is very young...

is that really happen in real life?

things happen every minute around all the corner..

P/S: the movie is great highly recommand to buy a ticket and watch it..

no more handsome brad pitt..good acting on this character..

friend ?valentine?

another valentine without lover..
haiz..
but lucky i still hv my best friend ..
something i thingking friend better then lover...
friend always v u .. no matter u r single or in the relationship...
maybe sometime will feel a bot loney no lover..
but honestly i think i am the super lucky 1 in the world..
cuz even my best friend hv their partner but they never forget me..
hahha..who is that (guess)..sure is janice lee best friend..
janice lee cant live without friends...(by the way i still single and availble kekekke)
thank you..
thank you who? of course is janice lee best friend la..but still didnt mention who is that rite?
they will know..
whose i talking....
hahhaha...

Life = Time

time is too long for some one...
time is too short for some one...
life too boring for some one...
life too dramatic for some one...
sometimes i just feel like i mean nothing in this world..
nobody will care about me?
what is life made for..
ppl said life is enjoy...
so do i enjoy my life?
but hw to enjoy my life?

missing some one

missing some one...

like heaven

missing some one...

like hell

missing some one..

like chocalate...

mission some one..

like lemon..

missing some one...

like everything.................

missing some one can be easy...

missing some one can be impossible...

missing some one can be a sweet dream...

missing some one can be tears-drop...

missing some one can be just like me...

who can stop... missing some one

what can stop...missing some one

where can stop...missing some one

how can stop...missing some one

something annoy me...

there is fog between us.. everything unclear..
is that illustion? or is true?
just a friend?
more than a friend?
or just a passenger in ur life?
something annoy me..
do u miss me like i do?
do u cherish me?
maybe thing happened on me is just a dream..
i meant nothing to u..
i still is nobody..
if really is a dream then thank for the sweet dream..
at least for the pass i am someone else to you ...